I’m moving…

I’m moving June 18th.
I’m moving from Washington June 18th.
That’s 10 days after I graduate.
I’m moving from the only boy I have ever felt this way about.
I’m moving away from the boy I am absolutely in love with.

He doesn’t know yet…
I don’t know how to tell him.
I don’t know how to tell him without him getting upset & wanting to end it.
I know he won’t want to lose me, I know he doesn’t want to lose me but I do know he won’t want to be long distance.

I don’t want to tell him & we have to worry constantly every day, every second about what we’re gonna do when that time comes when I have to leave him.

God knows this is tearing me apart.
I’ve done this before but it wasn’t that hard, THIS, this is gonna break my heart. I’m in love with Ryan, and I don’t know what to do about this. I’m honestly at a lost of what to do.
He’s not going to understand.

I don’t want to hurt him when I go.
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Ryan texts me every Wednesday & says “happy __ week!(:” well, yesterday was a bad day & I suppose we forgot to say it so the boy just texted me and said “happy late 10 weeks babe! :)”…the boy adores me & I love every bit of it.